The End Of?
Two things, firstly Ramadhan and secondly my first half semester of semester 1 here in KTJ. Two months had passed since the 1st time I step my leg here. My first week here were quiet harsh. Really harsh. And the following week is the same but when time passed. Im starting to cope with studies and subject here. Learning a new language is.. hard. But I keep telling myself, this is what you choose. And im glad that i choose japan because I had fallen in love with it, not 'had to'. If you had someone that you admire a lot, but you only can watch her from a far sight. And suddenly. GEDEBUK. She tell you she want you to marry her. And with a few tears, you said "I will dear". After you will marry her, you find out that she is weird. This always happen since your love one is always looks good infront of you. This is a logic since you cannot see someone personality with naked eyes. Even with a spectacle.
So this what actually happen to me, I mean not about her, married or.. its just a compare reasons. I always thought 'Its good if I can learn japanese' but ofcourse I dont have oppurtunity to do so. And suddenly, I got the shcolar, now I HAD to learn japanese. And then I found out that, saying is not easy as learning it.
Before The End Of this first half semester and for semester break for Hari Raya Aidilfitri, I had an exam. Its indicating whether I can survived here or not. And Alhamdulilah, its not THE END. Ofcourse its a very good result but for me its satisfying. Maybe its quite tiring and make you stress a lot, but its worth it, after two months.. my japanese from nothing to something which amazed myself how far I already learned. lol.
The End Of Ramadhan. Its happen when some people see bazar ramadhan stall are decreasing or mega mall where full with people seeking baju raya and kuih raya. For a proper definiton, its happen when its few days more before 1 syawal or Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
For me, last year was The End Of a memory of a part of Ramadhan. Its getting weird. But hold on, what I mean is Ramadhan that I spent as a kid and teenager were end. My house is not far from Surau Hidayah,which are less than 25 meter from my house and every night during ramadhan, Solat terawih will be performed there. Every Ramadhan from my primary schools time to end of secondary school are majorly spent there with my childhood friend which I know them for 10 years, some were less but we know each other very well. We do a lot of silly things like kacau each other during solat and then laugh. Or playing fire cracker infront of the surau, which interupted people solat -ing. Or after 8 rakaat, we go to the side of surau and eat foods which people send to surau as sedekah.
When we get older, after 8 rakaat we will play futsal at a futsal court not far from there. And I remember that there is a year when people play Meriam Buluh, we only watch its but its a good experiences. When we got more older, solat terawih is getting more serious. And after 8 rakaat we will talk about spm or maths or tommorow had an exam or "my girlfriend mad at me" lol.
This year, Im having Ramadhan by studying all days, memerizing and sleeping. that why I called it is THE END.
Before you giving up, give your best effort first. And then you decide but, keep telling yourself, Its not The End.
