A birthday rant

Its turn to 22. As I wrote previous sentence chorus part of Taylor Swift's song, Fifteen come cross to mind. Well for me coming from a Malaysian cultural perspective, its too early(read:easy) to believe that someone really love you at 15 years old. Its just will be a part of your life that make you smile alone everytime you remember it or make you want to crush your head to the wall remembering it.

Thats all the qouta for merepek's opening and lets get serious (alamak). I rarely even remember when my birthday is and for years back its always come like "oh yesterday my birthday la". But facebook age come and it help everyone remember when your birthday is. Its good actually. Human being especially male really struggle remember those birthday date. Its a fact that atleast apply to me. lul.

And it come to mine today turning to 22. What have I done on this 21 years?. Well I think I need to change the sentence to what god had plan for me on for 21 years back.  Nothing significant to be say here but i can say that i'm living my dream. Sitting infront a laptop, ignoring those shimekiri(read:workload) in warm room seeing snow falling(well its not falling but just bear with it to make this post interesting) from the window, is once just a big dream of a kid that want to make his mother proud. And he need to make his mother proudness continue this year. This year i need to take university entrance exam, yes, the one that look very hard and Japanese will study like crazy for it, like in those anime you had watch.

Life is hard aboard. Like in countless time I had talk about hardship in those merepek's post throughout this blog. Sometime I realize that becoming lazy is easy when you dont have goal to achieve. And to this point of my life I realize that i need to work hard to achieve something. Its sound really atarimae(read: general) statement for everyone but i'm not a fast learner and really bad at learning under pressure. I'm a kind that need to take time a learn step by step or bit by bit to really grab it.(Writing your weakness online sound bad actually haha)

Find your goal, and work hard. Try to not pressure yourself, have fun achieving it.

Its easier to say those advice to someone else then apply it to myself. harsh reality. lul. Anyway thanks to everyone who remember or realize today is the day for me. Kind words are actually enough for me but having a cat to cuddle in this long winter is much to be appreciate. Again thanks!. (crying while running sticker)